Spring Awakening

Well, it has officially been over a month since I last blogged. A lot has beeing going on and things are crazy busy. I am hoping over spring break next week I can take some time to re-group and blog some more.

So not only is the title of my post a wonderful new Broadway Musical, it is also what has been stirring inside me lately. Today was almost 70 degrees in Sioux Falls and it was gorgeous! Spring is right around the corner and with that comes a new awakening of life not only of nature and the environment but of people and their souls. Spring is a time of wanting to start new and come out of hibernating. So...what does this mean for me?

This spring I decided I was going to do all the things I wanted to do but never thought I could. I am going to stop being so scared to fail at things and just do them. Example number one: I decided to learn how to play Tennis. I know that sounds really weird but most of the people I hang out with either play Tennis in their spare time or competitively on a team. It was watching the men's USF Tennis season opener that I decided it was something I wanted to try. If you know me at all, you'll know that I have never been athletically gifted at anything....and I mean anything. So one day I decide to share this with my friends. It kind of felt like a bad episode of MTV's Made when the person being "made" has the big reveal talk with their friends to which their friends usually scoff and make jokes. My friends were quite a bit more receptive and willing to teach me. For some reason, I have an opposite inclination than most, in which I avoid asking the person who knows the most to help me. I have a friend who has been playing Tennis for most of his life and he is the person I refuse to let teach me because I'm afraid to look stupid because he is so good. He thought this was a pretty dumb reason not to let him teach me. When trying to convince me to let him he said that he knows I'm just learning and it's best to catch bad habits right away before they become part of the way I play. It completely makes sense but yet I'm so worried about my image that I keep refusing to learn from an expert.

This makes me think of how I do things in my life. I realize I need to let go of that fear and pride and just jump in. I know that in order to learn and experience the most things in life, I have to go to the source who can best equip me for each situation. I hate to feel like I am behind the curve and that I don't know as much as the person next to me. I have now realized that I will NEVER learn ANYTHING if I'm always too scared to fail or not get it right the first time.

So this is my goal for Spring and the new life that has been springing up within me.